Integration - unity - wholeness - one body, one spirit, one mind… This is what I seek.
          Feelings that correlate with truths I know…
                    Actions that reflect my desire…
Splintered - fractured - broken - separated…
This is what I am.
          My head knows what my heart can not feel…
                    My actions betray my beliefs…

I move before I can think. My thoughts manipulate my feelings in order to protect me from the pain of truths that should be long forgotten…
          Patterns developed and well learned to guard all secrets:
                    Change Faces
                               Trade Words
                                         The socially accepted response
                                                  Sit Straight
                                                            Walk don't Run
                                                                      Look in their Eyes
                                                                                Lies on Lies
          I feel Frightened, but I look Calm
                    I want to scream, but my voice is soft and controlled
                              I want to be silent, but I am talking.

          Trapped - Fighting increases the pain
                    Giving in - Brings Shame
                              No win, no way out
                                        Frozen emotions!

          When I feel, I can not think clearly!
                     When I can think, I can feel nothing! - A Lost Link!

A Body with no mind
          A Mind with no spirit
                    A Spirit tormented…
                              How does it come together?