I cannot begin to explain the new depths of my emotions, nor the intense freedom I feel in my soul.
          It is unusual to view such conflicting emotions as intense joy
          and deep sorrow as a blessing, but
                    The Joy is in Christ,
                              The Sorrow in all that I have lost.

God has answered my prayers beyond what I could have asked for…
          I have found joy and comfort in reading the Bible! I can
          understand it!
                    All of the joys are written to me!

I am aware that this is a process and that healing occurs over time…
           The perfectionist in me wants to be instantly free and perfect,
                     To overcome habits and fears in a week-end, but I
                     know
                              That is a Lie!

Already I have struggled, but I know it is only a reminder that
          I can't handle anything with my own resources.
                    I must rely on Christ to heal me and
                              Bring me to Wholeness.

This is what I believe…
          Three years ago I was saved, born again, and God restored to me my childhood. Since then I have behaved as a child; needy, insecure, demanding and frightened. This weekend God has restored to me my womanhood. I am a woman! Can you think of a better gift - I Can't! I prayed for release from my torment and God in His wisdom returned to me so much more. I now need to mature into what I pray will be a woman of God. Amen!

          Jesus Christ is my Lord, My Savior, My Redeemer